alone is sometimes good

brand new beginning!

hey ya'll!

k i knw i've been leaving this page to collect heaps of dust, but im far too busy and occupied dealing with life. HAH!

anw, a lot happened since i last blog. if i were to blog, i think i can write a novel! LOL

ok back on track, ITS JULY PEOPLE!

my birthday month u knw?! hee^^

half a year had just flew by like a bullet train. i cant even recall what happened in January. however, this year sure aint the same as the others. i learnt a lot of lesson from what had happened to dad. and i think it has changed the way i behave in one way or another. oh well~

its gonna be fasting month soon, then raya! honestly, idk how my family is going to celebrate raya this year. but im sure its gonna be a bittersweet one. :)

ok, before i bore u guys with my nonsense, i should stop here.

till the next post! :)

CURLS CURLS CURLS!!

i love these curls on blake lively! oh gosh! wanna do this for my next hairstyle! hee

what, LOVE? nvr heard of it. =.=

time never stop for you.

ROMEO,ROMEO??

why you may ask?

coz i still live in the past, that i forgot the people that is around me.

i keep living in the old memories back then that i forgot to make new ones.

i cant move on coz i treasure the old too much that i forgot how to start a new one all over again.

im scared that if i have a new one, i will forgot the old one.

i cant move on coz i keep forgetting to.....

its not that easy to just live and abosorb whatever thats infront of me. some poeple can adopt quickly, while others, like me, will need to take a long period of time before they can finally be comfortable with the new surroundings and act the normal way.

so if you cannot understand that, i think maybe we arent meant to be.

so,

i think it'll be better if we go our own separate way. like this, its a win-win situation. both are happy, and there is no awkwardness in the surrounding.

I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND.

:'(

i am truly terribly sorry. :(((((

confused, SORRY, sad.

that's why i didnt do it.

its because i dont want this to happened

but now, its too late,

it has happened, and

there's nothing i can change now.

hope everything will be alright.

why do you have to think so far?

i thought i was doing the right thing,

but in fact,

i was wrong.

im sorry if that ruin us.

im terribly sorry.

i didnt mean for all of these to happened.

seriously,

SORRY.

:'(

your thoughts that counts the most.

february februari

its feb alrd! time really flies past fast nowadays! im left with 1 more week of sch, and im done with sem 2! :D

january was a bit harsh to me, but it was okay. i manage to survive it, alhamdulillah. im sure God has planned good things in the future for me. :)

oh yar, well actually, 1st feb was not tht brilliant either. i was late for class! HAHA.

p.s. its alrd feb but i still havent buy my 2011 organizer! damn it! :(

somewhat like "DOs" and "DONTs"

have u thought about it?

hey peeps~! :D

i was just wondering, wht will u answer me if i say where u will be in the next few years in the future.

well some of u will have everything planned out. do well in sch, and go to some overseas university and continue ur studies there. while some, already think about work and marriage right after graduating poly. some have already their future planned out by their parents - work in ur father's/mother's company.

well, lucky for u guys, u have everything planned out, or at least have something in mind already. but for those who are cant afford overseas universiy or dont have their own family company, how?

i know im the kind of person who always go with the flow. i will worry about the current situation instead of the future. but i dont think i can just sit down and let time take its course for my future this time round.

there was this advertisement that caught my attention. it was about a collage in m'sia. a hospitality collage. i was thinking of pursuing my future there. its not tht bad but hmm, i still dont know. coz since my diploma is in hospitality, why not pursue it right?

but to be honest, i dont even know whether i want to be involved in this industry. i always keep my options open for any opportunity tht arrises. but till now, i dont even know if im going on the right path to the future. the diploma tht i enrolled in the first place is not even my choice of interest. i have no other choice, thts why. but im still keeping a positive outlook for it coz i know tht this industry is something that can never be out of line coz its something that is in demand everywhere.

so actually im torn apart. i dont know if i should stay in this industry line or go to another after graduating poly ( insya'allah). i dont wanna waste the whole 3 years of my poly education and then study something totally different afterwards. what a waste of time right.. haish...

i've asked my mum about the m'sia hospitality collage. and she said " are you sure u wanna go there?" i didnt answer her back. the next question she asked was, " are u sure u can be in m'sia alone" and i answered, "why not?" one of my auntie went to monash university in KL before. and she turn out great. so why cant i. i just have to be independent. its just another phase of adulthood right?

im still unseure of my future plans, but one thing for sure, i will always keep my options open and have a positive outlook about my diploma even though im not really interested in it.

after all, u dont know wht the future holds right? only god knows and thts just the way things are. so i just have to do wht i can now and see wht else HE has to offer me. :)